Am I addicted to porn?

Our anonymous author, who we'll call Torsten Nobir, has been jerking off to porn films every day for years. He now wonders whether he can even reach orgasm without the visual aid.

You actually get the best porn from the straight sector these days. At least that's the case for me: mature women like to make love to younger guys in the films. "Stepmoms" who have an eye for beautiful men and their dicks. Sure, it's somehow polished and artificial, it's porn, but that's what turns me on the most - even though I'm not sexually attracted to women at all.

It's cool when the cocks of the two men rub against each other

But the way the boys get so horny and have nothing else on their minds but to score is the greatest thing for me at the moment. I don't find threesomes with two women so hot, but I do when there are two men involved. I don't necessarily mean bi films, which are also good, but when two guys have a woman between them. Ideally home-made films: one guy lies on the bottom, the woman sits on him with her back to him, she rides him anally. Above her is the other, whom she takes vaginally. I get particularly horny when the two men's cocks rub against each other. Sometimes they look into each other's eyes.

My daily masturbation goes back a long way and I've only been jerking off to films for years. I recently spoke to a good friend about it, also gay, who mainly jerks off to his own thoughts in bed at night. I don't want to do that at all, I don't feel like it. And then the idea came to me that maybe I can't do it anymore. Nothing against porn consumption, it's important to me... but am I losing something? Is there any way to break such a porn addiction, if it is one?

Lazy or horny

My first attempts fail because the desire to jerk off leads me straight to the screen. The huge selection offered by the hubs and tubes alone is far too appealing to pass up for an experiment. I can't imagine my imagination alone being big and colourful enough to replace porn.

Am I lazy to think? In those moments when it has to happen, I'm one thing above all: horny. Joining up with others is also out of the question, because then it's sex and no longer masturbation. I have one more idea... after talking about the subject with a friend who is also into men, she told me that she satisfies herself without any wanking fantasies and without porn. She puts on relaxing music and then satisfies herself. Just focussing on her own body, a bit like autogenic training. Maybe that would be a possibility. Autogenic wanking, so to speak.